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I had some very upsetting and bad news delivered to me yesterday over the Internet via search engine and it involved a family member.
I have been speaking to my family about it all day today and at the end of the day I found some time for repose and recomposure from the days unsettling events outside with nature at a park.
Seems like when winter ends here it ends twice but only has one spring and when it arrives finally..its literally like it has SPRUNG.
Unlike, I suppose, the very slow transition of seasons I had become accustomed while living in the Lower Mainland.
After a harsh winter, spring may just be more appreciated in a place like PG...you just never know!
It is like the season of spring lasts in its entirety exactly one day and one day only and then ; presto wait for it though: it's actually summer!
But I get to espouse and share the feeling here that spring and summer, do I dare say?... means more and is sweeter for people who have endured and persevered through a harsh winter like here and is such a long time in the coming. First snowfall was in October and this feels like the end of it only now.
So time in the summer and spring it feels like the essence of time is magnified and indeed, each breath is a chance to say thanks.
But in light of learning yesterday that my oldest brothers passed almost two months ago to cancer (I hope this doesnt happen to anyone out there..it is the the absolute worst way to learn of a beloved family members passing) I had wanted to carry the significance of our precious time on earth with me where ever I went for the rest of my days. It reminded me so solidly and firmly of the preciousness of life itself.
The greenery of the trees reflected so beatifically in the serenely passing water of the high river, with a perfectly blue sky overhead and the sun setting in the sky behind me...created an eclectic picture I wish all could experience at least once in their lives.
But it was very beautiful and just what I needed for a highly charged emotional day for me.
Although the news was bad and upsetting, I ultimately found some sense of peace and satisfaction that some questions had been resolved and that this perhaps means a new chapter of my life unfolding although I may only sense it but not yet realize.
On the same day as two days ago, I read on-line that a young man in BC had the most unfortunate of circumstances behest upon him in being at the totally wrong place at the wrong time as swirling helpcopter came careeing down on a residential street while he happened to be enjoying him self (we assume) in the blissful isolation of a pair of headphones listening to music..
the small tragic story about 6 hours drive from here is now an
which seems to flip flop back and forth between worse and good
for instance
A person first on the scene, who happened to be a photographer, immediately began taking photos after seemingly all could be done to recover the unknown person from the accident scene.
Only later would he learn the photos he was taking happened to be of a person who was also his close personal friend, who was the person who died in the accident as this article explains. It has been reported that his father back in Kenya heard about his sons death,accident,passing via email, story here.
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Its the worst way to have news delivered to you believe me I know. After expecting so much, or at in the least a little...
discovering my brothers death and learning about it online was all I could take in one day. Surrounded by people in a public place, it may as well been an Internet cafe...and I wouldnt wish the same type of fate delivered to my worst enemy.
Posted by mach1231
at 12:45 AM PDT
Updated: Saturday, May 17, 2008 6:17 PM PDT
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